Saturday, November 26, 2011

Lincoln's first Thanksgiving

For Lincoln's first Thanksgiving we went to Vincennes to spend it with Adam's family. I can not express how much we love spending time with his family and what I would give for them to be closer. So far we/they have been really lucky to see Lincoln almost every week, but now they will go 3 weeks without seeing him and that breaks my heart. I know one day they will move up here and I can't wait for that day!

We left wednesday after Adam got done with work and Lincoln did fabulously!!! I fed him right before we left and he only started to stir when we were pulling into town! He did awesome especially since it's a 3 hour ride!

We had Adam's favorite pizza for dinner that night and Adam and I help his mom cook the stuffing, pumpkin and pecan pies. Lincoln was loved on by his Pop while we cooked and I have to say that watching Adam's dad with Lincoln is one of my favorite things. We also had several of Adam's mom's friends come to see him and I just love that they love our little man as much as we do. Adam's mom is so blessed to have these wonderful women in her life!

We woke up a little later in the morning and helped Adam's mom with cooking the dinner while Lincoln was awesome and took his somewhat morning nap.

We were joined by Adam's grandparents and his grandparents friends for dinner. It was a delicious dinner and we enjoyed spending time with everyone.

Lincoln was awesome and was for the most part really happy boy...which is getting better lately. We left late Thanksgiving night to come home so Adam and I could try to find a deal on black friday for a stove. And so I could attend a breastfeeding support group meeting on friday morning.

I can now say that I've tried that black friday thing and I don't quite understand why people enjoy it. I would much rather spend the extra money and not have to deal with stupid people and all the lines. We arrived back in Indy around 11 and dropped Lincoln off with my sister so we could go to HHGregg to see if their stoves were on sale, which they weren't. But we did get a few other items for people . So overall it was a successful trip in many ways, Lincoln slept well for my sister and we knocked out a few Christmas presents.

here are a few pictures of our little man on his first thanksgiving!!! :)

with his Pop while we cooked pies



he was a happy boy and smiling like crazy...i tried to capture it

cute face

hi mom

happy boy

too cute

with great grandma

with his great grandparents!

they love him

4 generations!

My first thanksgiving

smiles for Grandma

we wanted a family picture...I was exhausted as you can tell

happy boy!!!

Adventures in Breastfeeding

When you’re pregnant often times you are asked if you plan to breastfeed after the baby is born. My answer was always OF COURSE! I couldn’t imagine not. While I don’t have any real qualms against bottle feeding, I personally can’t understand why you would want to do something that is proven to be the best possible food source for your child.

I can now say that while I still feel strongly that everyone should at least try to breastfeed because some breast milk is better than no breast milk, it is a very challenging task. Through this process I have often thought how did women do this thousands of years ago? 

I have unfortunately come across many road blocks when it comes to breast feeding my precious baby boy but I am proud that I have stuck it out. Also I must say that I’m so grateful that we live in a large city where there are many support groups around for nursing mothers.

My troubles unfortunately began right after he was born. WARNING might be TMI. During the first few days Lincoln was a very sleepy baby. I personally think that this is because my labor was so long that he was just worn out. I know that babies are really made so that once they are born they really don’t need nourishment for a few days because often times it takes 4-5 days for a mother’s milk to come in. Well Lincoln was just so sleepy that he really was just not interested in nursing at all. I was having to wake him and try to get him to latch. But the problem was that my nipples are apparently really shallow so they weren’t big enough to get him to suck down on I guess. This is when the lactation consultant had me use a nipple shield.It’s a little plastic nipple that I have to put on before feeding him. It wasn't too bad, it was really just one more obstacle to try and overcome while also trying to tackle learning to feed a newborn. I don't recommend it. 

The next hurdle was that because he was so sleepy and wouldn’t really nurse they had to check his glucose level. Well the passing level was 45 and wouldn’t you know it he was 44. This meant that he had to have his glucose checked before every feeding and he had to be above 50 for 4 times. He was great for the first 3 then on the last one his foot was really cold and they checked it and he was 38. I about burst into tears. See they had to prick is poor little foot each time! The nurse I think felt sorry for me, so she said she would try a trick and warm his foot with a wash cloth and try again. This time he was 58!!! Halleluiah!!

The next hurdle was that Lincoln was a little jaundiced. Since my milk wasn’t in yet he wasn’t getting enough “bulk” to be able to have enough dirty diapers to get rid of the billirubin. The part that I don’t get is that he was having double the amount of dirty diapers than recommended but apparently that wasn’t enough. So we were “forced” to supplement with formula. This about broke my heart because I felt that I was a bad mom for not being able to give my baby everything he needed. 

They check the bilirubin levels first by a little device that reads it on their forehead, when that was high they had to check a serum level which is done by pricking his foot and getting 1-2 mls of blood! Since they were battling his levels this was done every 6 hours for about 24 hours. It broke this new mom's heart!

Luckily by the time we were about to leave his levels were low enough for us to go home, but we still had to come back to have his serum level checked a day later. But at least we were able to take our baby home.

Once we were home the trouble didn’t stop there. During the first week he nursed well, about every 2-3 hours. I had an abundance of milk once it came in. In fact he was back up to his birth weight by 5 days and we no longer had to supplement…YAY.

The trouble came around week 2 when my mother in law was here to help with Lincoln. Her and I went for a walk. As we came home I started to get a pounding headache. Within a few hours my skin was like pins and needles, it turned out I had mastitis! You can read all about that HERE.

After the mastitis it hurt to nurse for a little while but it wasn’t too bad. I made sure to continue to nurse Lincoln on the affected side like normal. Then around week 3 Lincoln began to grow extremely fussy especially in the evenings. Now I know that with breastfeeding your “supply” diminishes in the evenings, the trouble I had is that the mastitis left my supply already really low.  So consequently Lincoln was hungry all the time I think, this truly is just speculation since I don’t really know why he was so fussy in the evenings. I didn’t want to supplement because he needed to nurse to get my supply back up and if I fed him with a bottle that would only further help to diminish it. The reason I felt ok with this was because I knew he was gaining weight so he was getting enough milk to gain weight but not enough to truly satisfy him, or so I thought. The pediatrician told me I was doing a great job breastfeeding and not to worry that he was probably just a fussier baby, but looking back I truly think he was just hungrier in the evenings.

Well during the weeks that followed the mastitis I truly know my supply was less because I when I would pump I would barely get ½ an ounce when before I was getting nearly 3. Also I never felt full on that side anymore, and he would nurse for probably 35 minutes on the side and STILL be hungry and need to nurse on the other side. But If I nursed on the unaffected side first he would always be 10 minutes and done.

Needless to say around when Lincoln was 4 weeks old was a really frustrating time. With all the road blocks I was seeming to encounter I was getting really frustrated with constantly having to feed Lincoln because he was obviously growing and my supply was struggling. What I did to help overcome this was attend breastfeeding support groups. I am truly grateful for living in such a big city where the breastfeeding support groups are abundant. I have been to SEVERAL. One week in fact I went to 4.

The hospital groups I think are the most helpful. The lactation consultants will help and answer any questions you will have, but what they do is allow you to weigh the baby, nurse, then weigh the baby again to see how much he is getting when they nurse. They also are right there next to you looking to see if the baby is latching correctly and offering tips on everything on how to get them to latch, or tips on pumping when you return to work. 

I’ve also been to La Leche League meetings. These are really helpful just to have support from other women. It’s nice to hear their struggles to know you aren’t alone and also to able find out helpful hints on different parts of parenting and breastfeeding.

Through all of these meetings I learned a lot and really gained confidence in my abilities to provide my child nourishment.  Nursing is a lot about supply and demand. When your child goes through a growth spurt they will require more and will ultimately nurse longer to have your body produce more milk. The same can be true when your supply is lower in one side versus another due to something like mastitis. I was able to bring my supply back up but it still isn’t where the unaffected one is.

I know that my supply is getting back up really because he is happier in the evening, and I can feel my breast filling. But I really know because around week 4 when I went to the breast feeding support group meetings he was barely getting .02 oz on the affected side while he would get 3 in the unaffected side. And today when I went to the meeting he got 3 oz!!! YAY!!! 

I have actually ended up taking an herbal supplement called fenugreek to help even further. I take it in the evenings and it really helps my supply in the evenings to allow him to eat more and has in turn let him start to sleep through the night!!!

All in all my struggle with breastfeeding will probably continue but for the time being we seem to have overcome a hurdle…just in time for me to go back to work…eek! Due to me going back to work my next hurdle I'm sure is going to be whether or not I have enough milk stored for when I'm at work. Since I'm going to be working mainly nights this may make things a little easier since he will only really eat max 3 times while I'm gone, and eventually end up being less than that. But we shall see.

For the time being my biggest struggle is that I am trying to ween him from the nipple shield. So far it's going ok, my nipples are just really sore. So we will see. Hopefully it will be a smooth transition!

I also do have to say that although it has been a huge struggle to be breastfeeding. I’m really glad I stuck with it and am extremely grateful for everyone who has helped me through this struggle and offered support and been just simply amazing to me.  My efforts, struggles, tears and frustrations have paid off. I have a happy healthy and growing baby on my hands and for that I’m truly blessed!

Wednesday, November 16, 2011


Ok so I had Lincoln's newborn pictures taken when he was just 2 weeks old. In that time our awesome photographer had a baby so that is why these have taken a little while to get to us. But here are a few of her favorites! I love them and Can't wait to see the rest of them!!!

Monday, November 14, 2011

One Month Old

My precious baby boy is one month old!!! I just can't believe it's been a whole month since that long day of 25 hours of labor and 2 hours of pushing. Time really does fly by.

I love my baby boy so very much and it's a love the grows daily. Adam's and my life has changed dramatically in the last year and it's hard to believe what our life was like before Lincoln came along.

Over this last month I have really enjoyed getting to know my baby son, who lived inside of me for 9 months. Tears are brought to my eyes when I think back to our first ultrasound where he looked like nothing more than a kidney bean with arms. when I stare at him it truly makes me thankful for the miracle of life that our little bean has grown into a beautiful boy.

Adjusting to having a newborn has been quite a challenge. I'm quite thankful for having time off to figure him out as well as all the help I've gotten. From Adam, his mom and my sister I don't think i would have made it through this month without them.

Lincoln is a little bit of a fussy baby. I wouldn't go so far as to call him colicy because he is consolable but he is definitely fussy. Adam thinks he hates him because he is fussiest at night and when Adam tries to help me he cries even harder, the thing Adam doesn't realize is he cries for me too...A LOT! But his fussiness is getting less and less. What I mean by fussy is that if he is not sleeping he is honestly screaming. I then have to pick him up and find what position he likes in which he is only content for around 10 minutes and then we have to start the cycle all over again.

Over the last month Lincoln has really changed. He is holding his head up a lot more. In fact when I hold him up by my shoulder a lot of times he can hold his head up, it's a little wobbly at times but he does a great job with it.

Here are few more of his milestones/things he enjoys this month.

  • At nearly 3 weeks he smiled at me for the very first time while I talked to him
  • At just over 3 weeks he grew out of his newborn clothes 
  • After discovering the swaddle he will sleep anywhere from 2.5 to 4 hours at night until around 4 am and then wants to be in bed with mama, which is where he gets most of his "tummy time" laying on my chest
  • he is starting to track us a lot more
  • He has started cooing and it's the best sound in the world
  • He LOVES bright lights
  • He will play on his activity matt for about 5-10 minutes at a time most days
  • He loves to be bounced, I spend most of my days and nights doing this
  • He likes his butt patted while being bounced. 
  • When he gets really fussy the best way to calm him down is to take him in the shower and let the  water run on him. He loves it!
  • He moves his legs and arms more and more
  • Although he is a fussy baby, his fussiness is getting less and less...light at the end of the tunnel???
  • He found his tongue and sometimes I swear he is a frog!
I'm sure there are more but I can't remember them. :(

At his doctor's appointment today his stats are:
  • He weighs 9 lbs 14 oz
  • He is 22.75 inches long (he grew and inch in 2 weeks...eek)
  • He is in 80th percentile for height 
  • He is in 45th percentile for weight
  • His newborn screen came back and he is a perfectly healthy little boy!
Looks like we have a long and lean baby on our hands. 

Well last tuesday I started our monthly pictures. I wanted to have the date in the picture and will try to have a fun and creative way to do this. I also wanted and object that will show how much he has grown so I chose the winnie the pooh.

Since his fussy times are at their peak at night and I took these at night you can imagine how this worked out...

less than thrilled

angry pants

daddy had to hold his head up

he's so cute though

we calmed down a little

bright eyes


I stopped to feed him...

and fussy again

too cute!

all better again




I love this

i put washcloths under his head to help hold it up

my favorite

he found his tongue this month

and we're done
so this is Lincolns first month in a nutshell. I really can't believe it's been a whole month already. People aren't lying when they say enjoy it because time flies. While a large part of me is really sad that he is already a month old because I loved how small he was. I am however excited to see him continue to grow. I'm glad I will be working nights so I will still be able to be here with him every day. Hopefully he will be a good napper so that I can get some sleep during the day.

We love our baby boy and are so blessed to be his parents!
happy 1 month birthday Lincoln Robert!

Monday, November 7, 2011

Lincoln's first Halloween

For Lincoln's first Halloween we were in Vincennes IN visiting Adam's parents.

Last week Adam had to go out of town to work on the New I69 in southern Indiana. Where they work is about 20 minutes from Adam's parents house so Lincoln and I packed up monday and headed to their house. It was our first car ride that was longer than 20 minutes and I unfortunately did it alone. I didn't leave until the afternoon because everyone had to work and it would have been dumb for me to be there too early.

We only had to stop once so he could feed, and I did it in the wendy's parking lot. I honestly am not as modest as I once thought I'd be...i mean I'll never see those people again.

Anyways we made it safe and sound and he looked oh sooo cute in his little outfit for the day.

Once we arrived at his parents house, we dressed Lincoln up in his "costume". My friend had bought him this ADORABLE outfit and it was just perfect for a Halloween Costume.

our little cow 
mommy and baby

passed out

I look like shit, but its i think our first family picture

he was awake and in a good mood so I had to capture it

smiles !!!


cutie pants 
he is getting so big

His parents only had like 3 trick or treaters, I guess most people trick or treated over the weekend. But it was nice that Adams parents got to spend Lincoln's first Halloween with him.

It was a good day and I'm sad to say its over, but I'm looking forward to future Halloweens and getting to take him trick or treating!!!