"It's Not My Time"

I'm not one who enjoys complaining, but it seems like lately that's all I do. To be honest it stems from not being fully happy with my life. I love my husband and friends and family. Best of all I have a growing relationship with God and while that should all be enough it just doesn't seem to be for me. I'm almost embarrassed to even say that I'm unhappy because I have so much more going for me than a lot of people and I need to focus on this. I need to focus on the good in my life and not what I don't have. 

I'm a HUGE 3 doors down fan. They are by far and above my favorite band out there. I listen to them almost daily. This song is from their latest release (2008) and I think the chorus fits for me. This life that I'm leading is not over, it's not my time. I often feel that nursing school will be the death of me, and considering I'm not doing overly well in Peds right now, that truth has come more to the surface for me. Soooo here is my anthem for the next 10 months. Nursing school will not be the death of me and I will get to live the life I've always dreamed eventually, it's just Not my Time right now, and I have to learn to have piece with that. Sooo here are the lyrics to one of my FAVORITE songs ever....

"It's Not My Time"

Looking back at the beginning of this

And how life was

Just you and me loving all of our friends

Living life like an ocean

But now the current's only pulling me down

It’s getting harder too breath

It won’t be to long and I will be going under

Can you save me from this?

Cause it’s not my time I'm not going

There's a fear in me it’s not showing

This could be the end of me

And everything I know

Oh but I won’t go

I look ahead to all the plans that we made

And the dreams that we had

I'm in a world that tries to take them away

Oh but I'm taking them back

Cause all of this time I've just been too blind to understand

What should matter to me

My friends this life we live, it’s not what we have

It’s what we believe in

Cause it’s not my time I'm not going

There's a fear in me but it’s not showing

This could be the end of me

And everything I know

But it’s not my time I'm not going

There's a will in me and now I know that

This could be the end of me

And everything I know

Oh but I won’t go

I won’t go

There might be more than you believe

(There might be more than you believe)

There might be more than you can see

But it’s not my time I'm not going

There's a fear in me it’s not showing

This could be the end of me

And everything I know

But it’s not my time I'm not going

There's a will in me and now it’s gonna show

This could be the end of me

And everything I know

Oh

There might be more than you believe

(There might be more than you believe)

There might be more than you can see

But I won’t go

No I won’t go down

Yeah 

Love me some 3DD...thanks for the inspiration!