Lorelai is FIVE months

Oh my heart...how is this girl already 5 months? How has it been 5 whole months since she was born 2 of which have been at home!? Where does the time go? Every time I look into those gorgeous blue eyes (yes they are blue! WIN) My heart swells and I'm overcome with emotion. She makes my heart so happy! Obviously this month she has finally started to smile! YAY! I just love those big gummy smiles. She has her Papa's crooked smile (Lincoln did too). Needless to say I just adore it.

We also celebrated my favorite holiday...the 4th of July!! it was a great day getting to show her off in her just too cute outfit!

Landon has definitely warmed up to her, and loves to come and give her kisses all the time. He doesn't talk all that much still but you definitely know when he wants to give her kisses...he will scream kisses, kisses, kisses. I just love how he has come around to be such an amazing big brother. It's like he was born for this role.

I just love this Holiday
Just missing our Angel baby

TT had come down for the Rolling Stones and this was just comical

This month has been a lot of fun. I feel a lot more at ease with our daily lives. I feel like things are getting easier, or I'm just getting use to the udder CHAOS! I don't really keep my house all that clean anymore but heck it's summer and I want to go out and do things with the kids so that is what we shall do.

Lorelai is proving to be a good little sleeper and a very good natured baby. How we got so lucky yet again is a true blessing. She rolls with the punches and adapts well to new environments. The biggest hurdles we have is often finding somewhere to warm up her bottles. But other than that she the best behaved of the kids most of the time. 

She still sleeps next to us in her rock n play. due to her reflux I'm just not comfortable with her laying flat. Sometimes she does it silently and then starts choking and being unable breath due the milk coming out her nose...yea its fun...so i'd rather have her close where I can be startled awake and quickly grab her to help her out. If I could change anything it would be her reflux. I feel so bad for her when it happens. She gets all panicked and searches for me and her eyes are just pleading..."mom help please..." breaks my heart. But i'm told she will eventually grow out of it, so I'm hoping!

For now though i enjoy looking over and seeing these sweet cheeks and lips!

Adam's parents came up for a visit this month too and we had a great time riding trains and getting ice cream. it's always enjoyable having them up to visit, especially since its so hard for us to travel anymore. 

Lincoln has really become her little protector. He is always around her wanting to kiss her, help feed her (i let him "hold" the bottle) he is a great little helper for  a 3 year old. In this picture she was a bit fussy while I was getting her milk prepared and he "swaddled" her and was laying with her. He loves to pretend to sleep with her. He is always asking for her to sleep in his bed with her...and for inquiring minds, no we don't let him

She is the happiest in the morning after we let her sleep for 6 or more hours. We started off the month allowing her to sleep for 6 hours, but have moved to 8-10. She is such a champ little sleeper and we are still waking her up at that 8-10 hour mark, simply because I want to make sure she is getting enough volume of food each day.  but these smiles in the morning are priceless.

At night Adam and I on occasion get some special one on one time with her after the boys have gone to sleep. I truly enjoy these moments getting to love on her and spend this time just the 3 of us. 

Adam and I attempted to go to a brew fest in downtown indy. We've taken Lincoln to brew fests before when he was over 1 year old so we didn't think it would be a problem. OH boy were we wrong. The guys were dicks and wouldn't let us in, so we went for a walk on the canal with our love bug. It was again just a nice time just the 3 of us. 

pondering life

She has also become more and more awake and alert. Considering when we brought her home she slept all but an hour or so a day, often sleeping through feedings, it's been nice having some time to interact with her. Only downside is that she enjoys being held which I 90% of the time give into, on the occasion when I'm trying to get dinner done or need to put clothes away I was struggling with what to do with her. So I brought out the bumbo and she truly likes it for a short period of time. Shes all smiles being mommy's little helper.

This is fun mom

We also went to a family cookout to celebrate my cousin turning 30. Yes 30! This means I'm a short month behind her...EEK! but it was a great time spent with family celebrating family! Lorelai just loves getting loved on by all my aunts and uncles.

Aunt Charlotte loves

Aunt Sarah Making her Laugh

I just love this little girl so much. She is such a strong soul and I love how I can tell how much she loves and adores us with just her eyes. The way she looks at us, and searches for us, and responds to us. Its just beautiful.

More Lando Love

Getting to be a chunk! 

Mommy's helper with dinner

Off to go somewhere I'm sure. 

i got some new headbands from a friends new clothing shop and I just adore them

Im obsessed with these headbands

those eyes! they kill me

We finally made it to the zoo this month! She did great. it was like 95 degrees the day we went. I typically wear her, and then have the boys in the stroller, but due to the extreme heat I decided that it was probably best to not have her confined to my carrier since she is still so little and her head doesn't stick out of it. I didn't want her to overheat. But the boys had fun on the train and at the splash pad. Lorelai was a champ, even ate her whole bottle with little encouragement!

This big gummy smile is the best

This month has been very hard on me emotionally. I don't know why but I feel its because she's hitting so many milestones and I just think about her sister. But she does provide me with so much joy which helps, but the pain I feel over losing her sister is constantly with me. But my faith in God has really provided me with a lot of comfort. In many ways I feel so blessed to have a child in Heaven to help guide and watch over us, even if I wish she were here instead. 

And our 5 month pictures. I started out in one outfit, then decided to change her, all to then have her fussy butt puke all over it, so we went back to the first outfit. Lord how I love her and her silliness...she keeps me on my toes.

Our sweet Lorelai, every day is a blessing with you. You truly light up our lives. I can't believe you're 5 months old already!!! time is just flying and I enjoy every moment I get with you!!! Love you sweet girl