So Blessed

I am writing this on February 7, 2013. I wanted to get all my feelings down on paper even though I know I won't be posting this for a few weeks.

For the past few days I've felt sort of weird. I've been extra emotional, I've felt queazy, tired and had a lot of joint and hip pain. And to top it off I'm about 8 days late. I was talking to girls at work and they were convinced I was pregnant. I still wasn't too sure but then again I don't like to get my hopes up for things that may not happen. After all we've been trying for almost 8 months even though I was breastfeeding for 6 of those.

But after a lot of prompting by Adam, Lincoln and I went for a little car ride today. We first went to chic-fil-a because honestly I'm so tired that I don't feel like cooking yet another grilled cheese and I wanted something different. I taught Lincoln to use the dipping Ketchup and that was priceless!! Love it!

After that we went to Meijer because he needed some more milk and I decided to buy a pregnancy test. I bought the same one that I took when I found out I was pregnant with Lincoln. I called Adam and he told me to take it even though he is out of town and can't be here with me.

I got home and took the test and while the hour glass was going, I went outside and shut the door to call adam. He told me I needed to look at it and take a picture to tell him. Well I decided to take a video of Lincoln and I finding it out.

Honestly I was SHOCKED that it truly said PREGNANT. Even though deep down I really knew I was, I was afraid to truly believe it because what if I was wrong and my hopes were up and it wasn't true? But to our delight we are pregnant with Baby Chafin #2!!! Funnily enough, according to my ovulation schedule I'm actually due on Lincoln's second birthday!!! Apparently January is a good month for us!!

So now begins my weekly pregnancy updates!!! :) I hope I can keep up like I did when I was pregnant with Lincoln!!

We are so excited to make Lincoln a big brother!!! I've already been thinking of ways to let our families know!! AHHH I don't know when or how I'm going to tell them or keep this to myself for much longer!!!

**Update 3/23/13
As it turned out I decided to buy a tshirt on etsy that said Cutest Big Brother to be on it. I ordered it on a sunday, knowing that my ultrasound was on Thursday. Thinking we would have it by the weekend so we could tell my parents. I contacted the seller and she ensured me that she would mail it in enough time....well she lied. She didn't mail it until friday...the day we were going to tell my parents. RUDE

So instead I decided not to wait any longer and I had Lincoln "hand" them the ultrasound picture telling them that we had to go to the doctor the day before and they found something they should see...They were Thrilled!!! and a bit shocked! but are over the moon to be grandparents again.

We wanted to tell Adam's parents in person so they were to come visit for his birthday yesterday and we had Lincoln wear his shirt (which didn't arrive until the monday after the seller told me...uggg) and after being here for about 20 minutes and not noticing, partly because Linc was a bit shy, I told them Lincoln wanted to show them his shirt...I swear Adam's mom almost cried. (God I love her for that, her pure enjoyment about being a Grandma again is so incredibly moving).

After telling them we decided to take the news public by posting on facebook so extended family and such could share in our joy. I have to say I am completely overwhelmed by the love and support we have received with our news. It's truly humbling! Thank you to everyone who has supported us. We love you all for it.

Stephanie

The Kite Runner :)

Last night was once again our monthly LBC meeting! We discussed the Kite Runner, which suprisingly enough was our 30th book!!! :) Go us!! But before I get into my review of that book I must review the previous book...atleast I'm only behind by one book...

In February we read The Plain Truth by Jodi Picoult. Honestly this was a difficult book to read. The book is about an amish teen who gets pregnant and somehow her baby dies. The state police come to scene and charge her with the murder of her infant premature son. Being a mother myself it was difficult to read at times. I just couldn't fathom how a mother could not want her child. Then again I have always wanted children. Ever since I was young. It killed me to have to wait until 25 to get pregnant instead of 22! But in the end you really end up feeling for the young girl even though she frustrates you and you want to smack her throughout. It also was very well written and really makes you appreciate the amish life so much more. In fact I sometimes wondered if the Amish weren't in fact dead on when it comes to how they live. Sometimes the simpler life is so much better than the life we lead now. Often times our lives are complicated by so many things around us and we often lose focus on the things that really matter, such as God and family. Maybe the Amish really do have it right in how they work hard for everything they have and they work as a community and according to God's will instead of their own. It really is a refreshing way to live.
Rating 8/10 only because of the ending...

For the month of March (we had to meet early because of peoples work and travel schedules) we read The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini. It is about a young boy's life as he grows up in Afghanistan and eventually leaves and moves to the US. It is sad, depressing at times, hard to read but ultimately a story about what a young boy will do for the approval of his father and how he copes with his short comings and how he redeems himself in the end. What I've truly loved about these last few books is that they've opened my eyes to a life I never knew about. In this book we learn so much about the Afghan life. So much of what I thought I knew wasn't true. How many of the Afghan people are much life us and being repressed by the Taliban. The pure horror of what they must go through on a daily basis of whether or not they will be killed on the spot for their beards being out of place. I mean they have people who go around and do beard checks...really???? The people of Kabul live with sounds of gunfire and bombs daily and almost become immune to it. It's so depressing and makes me think of what a sad and scared life many of these people must have lived. It's sad  to me that a few bad eggs have made these people out to be the enemy. Not that I'm surprised, I often feel that way as a Catholic. But it really made me appreciate everything they've gone through and all the obstacles they must go through on a daily basis those that still live there and those that live here. It's sad to think that many of the killings were a lot like what Hitler did to the Jews. How do people have so much hate in their hearts for people whom they don't know, and are judging them soley on the way the look or their religious beliefs. The God I know isn't like that, and it saddens me to think that there are people out there in the world like that. But the book is so much more than just learning about the Afghan people and I truly recommend it.
Rating 9/10

Happy Reading...

Every Time You Go...

Ok I'm sure it's rather obvious that I'm a HUGE beyond HUGE 3 Doors Down fan. I seriously think I listen to them daily! Well lately I've been listening to this song on repeat because Adam has been gone so much. It makes me so sad when he's gone, I feel like all I want to do is lie in bed and cry but I have a beautiful child to play with and job to go to so I can't. This song helps me get through...even if by the narrowest of margins. 

Adam left yesterday for the week and I'm beyond sad about it. It was his 32nd (yes he's old) birthday and it just killed me that Lincoln and I weren't able to be there with him. I seriously feel so very bad about that! But he understood and we celebrated a little over the weekend and will even more when his parents come up this coming weekend. 

But here's to my babe whom I love more than words can ever express. I miss him every time he leaves and a part of me is always taken away with him. My life truly misses something when he's not here...

"Every Time You Go"

I savor every minute that you're here

That you're here with me

Close my eyes and remember every breath

Every memory

Through all these sleepless nights alone

I still feel you

Across these miles away from home

That I'll never get used to

Every time you go, you take a part of me

A part of me with you

Every time you go

I feel it in my soul

Every, every

Every time you go, I'm half what I used to be,

When you were in my arms

Every time you go

You take a part of me, a part of me with you

Every time you go

I count the days until you're back again

Back here by my side

When we're apart it feels like, something in me

Something in me dies

I hear your voice over the phone

And God I miss you

Still all these miles away from home

That I'll never get used to

Every time you go, you take a part of me

A part of me with you

Every time you go

I feel it in my soul

Every, every

Every time you go, I'm half what I used to be,

When you were in my arms

Every time you go

You take a part of me, a part of me with you

Oh I'm there with you in your heart

No matter how far apart we are,

Go with me, everywhere you go

Every time you go, you take a part of me

A part of me with you

Every time you go

I feel it in my soul

Every time you go, you take a part of me

A part of me with you

Every time you go

I feel it in my soul

Every, every

Every time you go, I'm half what I used to be,

When you were in my arms

Every time you go

You take a part of me, a part of me with you

Every time you go

Every, every

Every time you go, I'm half what I used to be,

You were in my arms

Every time you go

You take a part of me, a part of me with you