Lorelai is THREE months old

Ok Seriously where has the time gone? How is She THREE months old!!??? I just can't believe it. It feels like just yesterday that they were rushing me back to take my precious little miracles.

First Cinco De Mayo?

But here we are...3 months...and of course the BIGgest, i mean HUGEst, BESTest news this month is that our beautiful little girl is HOME...H.O.M.E.!!!!!! saying the words out loud bring me so much emotion. I'm sitting here writing this and am fighting back tears. Every little milestone I took for granted with the boys means so much when you have a preemie and bringing your baby home when they are term is a huge thing...bringing your preterm baby home is MONUMENTAL!

So lets start from the beginning. Lorelai had a huge month. She started off the month in the NCC. I also went back to work. Being in the NCC with me working meant that I got to sneak in to see her a few times a night. It also meant that I left and hour early and stayed an hour or so after work to spend time with her. --so this mama was even more exhausted than normal but I'd do it again for my girl.

Lorelei's biggest and really only hurdle this month was feedings. She needed to take a minimum amount of oral feeds to take her NG tube out. Then she needed to continue to take a certain amount to come home.

I'm not sure if what we experienced with her oral feedings is normal, but it was FRUSTRATING! She took her first several bottles great and then it was like she realized this was hard work and didn't want to do it anymore. It felt like a huge struggle. But we eventually got there.

We spent my first mother's Day as a mom of 4 separated. It was really hard to not have my 3 surviving kiddos together. So I decided that we weren't going to celebrate until Lorelai came home. The day was so emotional for me. One of the hardest things for me is that all 4 of my children were never together. All 6 of us will never be together on this earth. And yes we know Laynie is in heaven and all that but hopefully it will be a long time until all of us are together in Heaven and mother's day was just a reminder to me of what I'm missing. Missing having my girl home, and will always be missing Laynie

Mothers Day

Mothers Day

One of my Favorite nurses made this priceless card for me

I cried when I opened this. It was so incredibly thoughtful

Enjoying some snuggle time

The Dr. that released her also happened to be the Dr. that will always hold a special place in my heart.  He was the one who tried so darn hard to save our Laynie. It really felt fitting that he was the one to discharge her. He had told me on a wednesday that he was going to trial her without her NG tube. and if all went well then she would be coming home saturday. Well then he tells me Thursday that since it had been 48 hours without any tube feedings (she was taking her bottles so well before they dc'd the NG) that she could actually come home the next day (FRIDAY).

car seat study time! one step closer to home!

Let me just say this...HOLY COW...IT JUST GOT REAL! When you have a baby in the NICU, especially one that is born 12.5 weeks early you know that NICU time is essential. You develop this routine to get you through the most challenging time of your life balancing your home, work and new baby life. Then those 5 little words are spoken...She gets to come home...and let me tell you the emotion that comes with those words. Holy COW! She is finally all ours, finally ours 24/7. then reality hits...Crap I had so much to get together and get before she came home. Diapers, bottles, bottle brushes, formula, sheets cleaned, clothes cleaned, the house cleaned, swing together, rock n play cleaned. It felt so good yet so overwhelming. We'd waited so long for this and it felt like it was just sprung on us, but in a good way.

We had oodles of teaching done, mainly on how to feed her. She requires to be fed by a bottle due to her bones needing preemie formula and her just being a preemie means she needs extra calories to grow, so we fortify my breastmilk with formula to give her what she needs. We follow a recipe to do this. She also had some testing done to ensure she was ready to go home. A hearing screen which she passed, and Oxygen test that checks to make sure her heart is pumping blood throughout her body and a car seat study to make sure she can be strapped into a carseat and not brady or desat. of which she passed :) once she passed all this we were just waiting on her NG to come out!! :)

I decided to do a little something for all those nurses who helped us along the way. I baked 8 dozen cupcakes. I gave 4 to the NICU nurses, 2 to the High Risk nurses and 2 to my unit. All of these nurses touched us and helped us get to this point so we felt we needed to celebrate with them. I also wanted to get some small gifts of appreciation for her primary nurses. I felt like I was running around at mach 2 with my hair on fire. And then it occurred to me to surprise my parents, sister and Adams family that she was home...let the scheming begin.

I was scheduled to work that friday so I of course had to call in... but i pretended to go to work like always so my dad wouldn't suspect anything. Then after I brought her home adam and I headed to my parents to pick up the boys (adam had worked late and my dad took boys back to his house) and surpised them all when I walked in the door not only just me, but with our girl in tow. It was glorious and I'm so happy I decided to surprise them.

Her NCC Home

Her NCC Home

I will not miss this monitor!!

Just had to take a picture of her Chart

Getting all cute to go HOME!

In her Car Seat Ready to GOOOOO

In the Car Ready to go!

after Loading her up in the car, we headed to my parents house to go pick up the boys and finally have all of us together!! What a beautiful day!! She came home on 5/15!!

Proud Biggest Brother!!

The fact that Lincoln's Face is blurry tells you how excited he was

Finally a picture of the 5 of us!!

Ive waited 10.5 weeks for this!

Having her brothers finally get to love on her was one of the greatest gifts I've ever received. Lincoln just adores her, and Landon is well a little in different and I think a little unsure about her. But i'm sure he will come around.

Morning after she came home. Lincoln was in Awe of her

Landon's face says it all. Not too sure yet. 

5/18/15 First pediatrician vist

Once she was home the real fun began. We have to set timers to feed her. Once again (THANK YOU LORD) we were blessed with an excellent sleeper. So good in fact that she doesn't wake up to eat. I have alarms set to wake up to feed her. Sometimes this is easy but most of the time it can really be a challenge to get her to take the volume she needs. But all the frustrations are worth it to have her home.

This month she has also started to have a little bit of reflux, which means she has PROJECTILE vomit a few times a day. But nothing we can't handle and it doesn't seem to affect her weight gain just yet. but if it does then we will be putting her on reflux medication.

So far Lorelai also has to go weekly to her pediatrician. He wants to make sure she is gaining the appropriate amount of weight.

Lorelai also had her first few outings outside the NICU and the house. Being that she had her normal two month vaccines already I was and am more comfortable taking her out into the world because she is luckily pretty healthy. My sister came down to surprise me and stayed with me for a few days and we took the kids to the childrens museum and to the monon center to swim. The boys really enjoyed themselves and I even dipped Lorelai's feet in the pool!!

First Outing to Lowes! 

at the Monon Center

Relaxing in her Carseat. It was hot so I took her sleeper off, I didn't want her to overheat

I just Had to

We also made it to her due date which was one of the hardest days for me. It was so full of what ifs. What if we would have made it to our due date, what if we could have gotten Laynie to the weight she needed for surgery. It was so emotional. But I spent the day snuggling all 3 of my surviving kiddos and trying to count my blessings, instead of what I didn't have.

On her Due Date

This month had just truly been a huge blessing to finally get her home. I'm so happy she's here and couldn't be more proud of my strong girl

First holiday at home...memorial day

We also were able to do her "newborn" pictures with our photographer! Here are just a few of my favorites! 

And the 3 month Photos....

she was less than thrilled to be doing these, so I tried a pacifier

Lorelai I just love you more than you will ever know. I'm so proud of your fighting nature and how hard you worked to get home. You're a beautiful little spirit that I cherish ever second with. You have made me the happiest mommy in the world and I'd be lost without you.

Lorelai is TWO months old

I know I'm quite late in writing this, but what else is new? SO here it goes.

Though she be but little
she is FIERCE

I know I say this every month with every child, but I can't believe another month has gone by. So much has changed, Lorelai has made so many strides in the direction of coming home. It truly feels like we are in the home stretch! and should have her home in NO TIME! 

A few days before the Oxygen came off

Such a sweet face

First and foremost she has come off her oxygen!!! This was such a wonderful day for her! When you have a baby so prematurely you understand that oxygen supplementation is necessary. So the day that she was able to come off of it was glorious!!! She was on 0.5L of flow for several days. They tried her off her oxygen for about 10 minutes when she was 1 month old but she didn't tolerate it well and kept dropping her saturation level in the 80s, so they put her back on it. She just wasn't ready. -- I honestly didn't understand why the MD wanted her off it when she was requiring additional oxygen for the few days prior. Even though she hadn't required additional oxygen for 24 hours. --sometimes things just don't make sense to me.

My Little Joey

Lincoln got to meet her for the first time. Our wonderful photographer {who has practically become family!} had agreed to come take a few pictures of Lorelai while she was in the NICU, and I decided to for her to come when Lincoln could get his 1 visit. The NICU's policy is that children under 2 cannot visit, but children between 2-4 are allowed one visit. It was one of the best days I had had since giving birth to her. To have 2 of my 4 children together brought so much joy to my heart. He loved her, and loved getting to see her. He talked about it for days after! I also think it really helped him understand where I was going when I would leave him.

They dc'd her caffiene. She was on this to help with her bradicardic events. (drops in heart rate) She did excellent with this, not ever having to go back on it!! :)

One of the biggest things that happened this month was so many people finally got to hold her! My sister, my dad, my grandma, Aunt beth and some friends from work! It was such a wonderful moment having all the people who have loved and supporting me through each bad day be here to hold her.

My dad holding her for the first time

A little TT love

We also finally got to try to breastfeed...non nutritively. which meant I pumped, then I would try to breastfeed while they dropped her feeding in through her NG tube. She did ok with it. She would latch, take a few sucks, but it was such a wonderful experience for me. I love to breastfeed and even though I will never be able to exclusively breastfeed her due to her need of increased calories, just getting to do it a little was good for my soul.

She also moved from her incubator bed to a CRIB!!! BIG GIRL!! They ended up needing to elevate the head of her bed for her reflux because she would desat during her feedings. Once they elevated it, she did much better! :)

She took her first bottle on 4/21. This was a monumental moment for her! She was 7 weeks old and about 35 weeks adjusted. She had come so far and had made so many positive strides. It was wonderful for her to be able to finally take oral feedings. Over the next several weeks she was hit or miss with her bottles. Some days she would take a lot, others she wasn't interested. but all was a day in the life of a preemie.

NICU Home 

Her NICU Home

All settled into her new home in the NCC

Another huge milestone that happened was that she got moved from the NICU to the NCC. This was very emotional for me. In fact when her nurse told me I cried. Yes this was a good thing, and YES this was a step in the right direction, but the NICU was practically like home. It was the only place Laynie ever was, it was the only place that both my girls were ever able to be together. It was hard to say goodbye, but the NCC is nice, its quiet, its quaint and with my return to work, it is on the same floor. which is a huge bonus! I can check on her whenever I want!

Once she was moved, PT decided that she needed a halo pillow to prevent her head from getting too flat, it was basically a small donut that she placed her head in to help keep it round. :)

Adam Finally feeding her!

Adam and I also finally got to feed her this month. What a trivial thing that with the boys we took for granted. But being that both of us only got to be with her for a few hours a day, timing our visits around her feeding schedule could be hard. As well as timing Adam's visits period. Being that we are closer to summer he is working LONG hours again and some nights he was just too tired to travel back to the hospital to see her--which I can't fault him for. Plus the NICU/NCC is closed from 7pm to 8pm as they change shifts and it's very inconvenient.

The last thing that Lorelai accomplished this month was decreasing her feeding times. She gets a majority of her feeds through her NG tube (tube in her nose). She had one really significant event where she dropped her heart rate and oxygen level and struggled to bring both up while she was feeding, so they moved her to getting every other feeding through the bottle. When she takes her bottles they allow her to take as much of her volume as she can and then gives the rest through the NG. however every other feeding they just give it to her directly through her NG. Typically they put this on a pump for her and it goes in over a hour...this is to try and help her reflux. However just a day or so ago they moved it to go in over 30 minutes instead of 60!! This is all good news!!!

So this month Lorelai is 5lbs 13oz that means she has gained 2 lbs 8 oz...thats more than her birth weight!!!
She grew 7 cm and increased her feeds by 20 ml every 3 hours!
She's getting to be such a big girl! I'm really hopeful she will come home this next month!!!
She also moved from preemie clothes to NEWBORN clothes and went from preemie sized diapers to newborn sized diapers...we almost have a normal sized baby on our hands

A little weekly progression...she really has grown!

and of course the obligatory monthly photos...

Lorelai you are quite the little miracle. You have made so many beautiful strides to coming home. Though we always knew this NICU road would be a long hard one, you have made it relatively easy on us and we are so proud of you. I just know in my heart you'll be home with us in no time!!

Love you baby girl...keep growing and keep getting stronger!

Lorelai is ONE month OLD

As I sit here and write this, I can't believe that my little walnut is ONE whole month old! where has the time gone? I just can't quite fathom that she is a month old. Maybe becasue she is still so little or the craziness of the last few months it just all feels surreal. As of today she is 32 weeks. And she is just growing like crazy! She's gained over a pound in the last month!

So since we are still in the NICU this won't be my traditional monthly post, but I will try my best to sort of summarize our last month here in the NICU.

So since birth Lorelai has made a lot of progress! Giving birth to her and Laynie at 27 weeks 5 days, was by far the scariest day of my life. As I've well documented in their birth story.

At birth Lorelai came out guns blazing determined to prove everyone wrong, that a small yet mighty little girl had made her way into this world. For starters she NEVER had to be ventilated! This is huge for a "micro preemie". Most babies (sorry I don't know the actual statistics) some sort of breathing assistance when born this prematurly. This is usually in the form of CPAP or being intubated and made to breath on a ventilator. Luckily for us and for Lorelai she never required the ventilation. She only was ventilated for a short period of time a few hours after birth just so they could give her some surfactant which is used to help her lungs mature. The reason she had to be ventilated for this was because this was the only way to get the medication to her. As soon as they administered it she was taken right back off of it. --She's a champ for sure.

She stayed on the CPAP for a little over 2 weeks. She was on a pretty high setting of the CPAP, but was able to come down gradually. Then at about 2 weeks old she was brought down to what they call Vapotherm. This is a specific type of nasal cannula. This nasal cannula has more flow going through it. so it allows her to still breath on her own but allows her lungs to remain open still. She remained on that as well for about a week or so before coming down to a normal nasal cannula which she remains at now. The only thing left for her breathing wise is to bring her down to nothing. We are in no rush to do this and will just sort of trial it when the doctors feel she is ready. She is currently on 1L of flow with a little bit of humidity to help to not dry out her nose too much. She continues to have the occasional desat (drop in oxygen) and occasional brady (drop on heart rate). and once these become fewer and fewer we will start to wein her down to no oxygen support.

Along with the breathing support she has made great strides in her eating too. Being born so young, she doesn't have the normal refexes to eat like a term baby. To give her the nutrition she needs they feed her through an OG tube that goes in her mouth and into her stomach and via TPN which is IV nutrition. When she was first born they were giving her more IV nutrtion than through the tube. They had to be slow in introducing the feedings of breastmilk through the tube becasue they didn't want to overload her gut too soon which can cause infection called NEC which can be deadly. So the first few weeks she was given her IV nutrition as they slowly increased the feedings she was getting through her OG tube.
The feedings they gave her through her OG tube started at 2mls every 3 hours, and gradually increased to 4, 7, 10, 13, 17,18, 22, 24, and now she is on 26mls of breastmilk every 3 hours. Once she finally got to "full feeds" which was 18 mls they discontinued her IV nutrition. They also began to fortify her OG feeds with additional calories to help her gain weight. Due to her small size she requires a little more calories than the term baby in order to gain weight. Her body is also working harder to breath and do the things that come easier for term babies. So as of right now she is on 24 cal feeds.

We had only a few hiccups with her. The first hiccup we had with her was a "complication" that happens often with preemie babies. She had a large PDA. which is a normal connection in the heart that is there in utero that allows blood to be shunted away from the lungs while they are still inside the mother since the oxygenation of the blood is done by the placenta. Once a term baby is born their bodys get the signal that this connection needs to close. But due to her being premature her body didn't get this memo. She was given one course of a medication that helped to close this connection and she has been doing well ever since.
The second "complication" was that she had a low blood volume once and required a little bit of supplemental blood. This is a "normal" complication due to the fact that they are taking blood from the babies and they aren't able to replenish it quite as fast. A small drop of blood can be a big deal for them.

Overall this little warrior amazes me everyday with her strength and progress. She is acting just like a premature baby should. This month has been tough, coming to the NICU 2-3 times a day for me, while balancing the time at home with the boys. But I wouldn't trade my time with her for anything. She is so precious and I'm so grateful to God for giving much a beautiful little girl who has touched so many people and allowed me to be a positive inspiration in so many lives. She will be here for at least another month, and with all her accomplishments this month, I can't wait to see what next month brings us.

Lorelai, you amaze me everyday. Your daddy and I love you so much! Keep it up baby girl. Keep getting stronger so we can have you home with us soon. Your brothers can't wait to meet you!!!

Happy Birthday Baby Girls

March 3rd will forever be one of the scariest days of my life. As I'm writing this a month later. The emotions are still there. The fear was the worst part, I was so scared for my daughters, scared i was going to lose them. What if the u/s was wrong and Laynie wasn't big enough? What if delivery wasn't good for Lorelai? What if something happens to me during the c-section? What if I don't tolerate the anesthesia well and it harms the girls? Truly the fear I felt was all for the girls. Honestly you could do whatever to me, so long as my girls were safe. My life didn't matter, it was theirs...and delivering at 27 weeks is extremely scary. I just wanted my girls here safely.

The day started off like each one of them, we were awaken to go down to MFM to have our daily ultrasound. I had been feeling a little worried for most of the previous few days because her cord blood flow had looked so bad. It was persistently absent and reverse. It just gave me an unsure, uneasy feeling. Then the ultrasound happened. Her cord blood flow was pretty much the same. But her ductus flow as absent. And to top it off Lorelai's fluid was less than 5%, which was dangerously low. So for the first time ever Adam and I agreed with Dr. Conover in that waiting two more days wasn't going to necessarily do more good than delivering today because things looked so bad.

I will never forget the panic that ran through me when he told me that we should deliver today. I felt like I was sucker punched. Even though we knew this was imminent and a possibility everyday, when it actually happened it was scary.

We walked back to our room at 10:07 where Adam and I were calling family and friends to let them know that we were delivering today. I was crying, quite honestly sobbing. I remember walking into our room and seeing a familiar face in one of the nurses that was on HRU. She was setting up my IV and Bag of Magnesium. I was to get a bolus of magnesium ( a dose of the medication over a short period of time). And then we would go back to the OR. I remember feeling so panicked and scared. I remember the OB who was on call (Dr. Hughes) coming in and asking if I had any questions, and all I told her was I wanted and ON Q pump.
Next I remember my mom coming and just losing it. The fear I felt truly is indescribable. We also ensured that the hospital priest was called. We wanted the girls to be baptized as soon as they were stable enough.

They started the magnesium and I began to feel hot, and a little uneasy. The magnesium went in over 20 minutes then we were on our way to the OR.

As we went to the OR, my mom stayed back in the room, we were met with Fr. John. He said a beautiful prayer over us and for a split second I felt more at ease. Once we got back to the OR area, they put adam in a different room while I headed into the OR to have my spinal. I was quite scared about this since I'd never had any major kind of surgery and never really had any type major medication. I wasn't sure how I was going to react since I passed out from taking a vicodin a few years ago!

So they sat me on the edge of the table and I held my nurse (Leigh)hand. She was quite calming. The anesthesiologist placed the lidocaine and then the spinal. He asked how I felt and I remember feeling the medication work down my rear end. i have to say that was the oddest feeling ever. It can only be described as weird. Once my rear end felt "weird" they placed me on my back, anchored my foley and began to prep me for surgery. As they were prepping me the spinal started to work it's way up my body towards my head. That was a panicky feeling. (not that the whole emergency c-section wasn't a panicky situation in and of itself) I remember starting to feel like I always do before I pass out. I told the anesthesiologist this and he tried his best to calm me...then came the nausea...he quickly gave me some zofran which helped. Then he began to narrate what my OB was doing to me which also helped calm my nerves. I remember him telling me they gave me a big pinch to ensure that I was numb.

Then by the grace of God they allowed Adam to come into the room. The NICU team came over and introduced themselves to us. Ashley and Katie were the nurses that would be there to wisk our precious little angels off to the recessitation island to stabilize them. We were told Fr. John would be allowed in as soon as they were stable to Baptize them.

Dr. Huges then told me they were ready to start. Adam brought his head down to me and we began to pray. We began to recite The Our Father, and many Hail Mary's...we repeated this until the girls were safely here. It felt like it was taking forever but it was really 5 minutes or less, and at 11:39 we finally heard the smallest little cry and we were told our beautiful little Lorelai was here! We were told she looked great, unfortunately we were unable to see her since they had to immediately take her back to ensure she was able to breath. Then one minute later at 11:40 we heard the most beautiful little cry that can only be described as a little mouse squeak. And at that moment I lost it. I knew our little Laynie was here and was healthy enough to have cried. I was overjoyed. I was scared. I was fearful for what the next few moments meant for her. But again we were told she looked great. The girls were given APGARS of 8/9 for Lorelai and 5/7 for Laynie. We were told Laynie just got some points off because of her color. (apparently she was pretty blue).

At that moment Adam and I cried (well he may not have really cried but you get the idea). We were so happy that our little Angels were here. But then the panic and realization of what had just happened set in for me. I wanted to know they were ok, I wanted to know that they had been baptized and all went well.

Shortly after our nurse Leigh was able to go back and get some pictures for us. She was only able to get pictures of Lorelai at first because they were working on getting Laynie intubated.

sweet Lorelai

Lorelai--she looks like Lincoln to me

Then while the continued to put me back together. Adam was able to go back and see the girls and Leigh was able to get a few pictures of our extremely small little girl. We were told that Lorelai was 2 pound 2 oz an Laynie was 1 lb 8 oz. He told me he wasn't able to see Lorelai because they were placing her umbilical lines. But he was so excited and I was thrilled for him.

Our Laynie

Oh so tiny. They use the plastic bags to keep them warm

Adam meeting Laynie for the first time.  

Then it was off to recovery for me. I have to say the first 24 hours after a c-section are the worst strictly for the itching. It wasn't an hour after they were born when I started to itch ALL over. My nose itched so bad that I rubbed an open spot on it! I had a scab on my nose for almost a week! The shakes that you get about an hr and half later were bad as well as the nausea. I had to get a few doses of anti nausea medication.

But while we were in recovery Dr. Kearby came back and told us that both girls looked great. Lorelai was on CPAP and tolerating it very well (this was rather remarkable that a 27 week old preemie didn't need to be ventilated). Laynie was ventilated and was also tolerating things well. Lorelai was having a little bit of trouble keeping her blood pressure up so they had to give her a bolus of fluid. She had less fluid in her amniotic sac so this wasn't surprising.

Finally at 2:30 we were able to finally see the girls! They were beautiful. Life was good. They looked great and they were oh so sweet. Laynie's nurse Ashely lifted her incubator so that I could actually touch her. It was the best moment!!! Lorelei's nurse Katie also allowed me to touch her.  it's a moment I will never forget and a moment I will cherish forever.

Laynie Renee

Sweet Laynie

So Tiny but Oh so adorable

Lorelai Raegan

Oh precious and sweet Lorelai

We had two beautiful little girls. Two what appeared to be healthy little girls. I felt at ease, because I knew these girls would fight to get bigger and fight to stay alive. I felt the most at ease I'd felt in weeks knowing they were here and in the best possible hands.

Happy Birthday sweet girls. Your birthday was traumatic, exhausting, scary and the most precious day I'd had. I'm so grateful to God for allowing me to carry you both until 27.5 weeks. We fought hard and we were able to get you as far as possible. Your daddy and I love you more than anything!!! Thank you for being such fighters with me! We did it!

27 weeks with the girls

Going from 26 to 27 weeks with the girls was a huge milestone. When we finally got to 27 weeks I felt I could breath a little easier. While 28 weeks was still our goal, I felt so much better knowing that if we delivered at 27 weeks it was so much better than 25 or 26 weeks.

The few days leading up to 27 weeks were somewhat uneventful. Laynie's cord continued to just bounce between intermittent absent to reverse flow to having flow. Everyday brought us something different but we were just hanging out at or status quo. We prayed daily and the relief I felt everyday knowing I'd get one more day was one of the best feelings I would get.

On the day I turned 27 weeks the OB that was covering decided it would be best to schedule my c-section for 28 weeks since Adam and I had decided not to push our luck past 28 weeks. Every one of the OB's agreed with Adam and my decision to not push it past 28 weeks. For Adam and I we were given such horrible prognosis and not a whole lot had changed in the month that we were dealing with all of this. So we just felt that 28 weeks the chances of survival were pretty good and they didn't really increase that much until 34 weeks so why risk losing her.

Dr. Heitt described it the best when we were talking about it. Adam had mentioned that when we start to see red flags that it would be time to deliver. Dr. Heitt plainly stated that we were swimming in red flags, in fact they were crimson flags. That was the point where Adam and I knew we were making the right decision. 28 weeks was our goal!

On March 2nd our ultrasound was showing absent flow but no reverse flow. The doctor we were dealing with that day was Dr. Conover. We weren't thrilled with this fact since he was so non compassionate to us about Laynie 4 weeks previous. But we went with it. We were just grateful to be getting one more day.

But then on March 3rd. Everything changed....