Going from 26 to 27 weeks with the girls was a huge milestone. When we finally got to 27 weeks I felt I could breath a little easier. While 28 weeks was still our goal, I felt so much better knowing that if we delivered at 27 weeks it was so much better than 25 or 26 weeks.
The few days leading up to 27 weeks were somewhat uneventful. Laynie's cord continued to just bounce between intermittent absent to reverse flow to having flow. Everyday brought us something different but we were just hanging out at or status quo. We prayed daily and the relief I felt everyday knowing I'd get one more day was one of the best feelings I would get.
On the day I turned 27 weeks the OB that was covering decided it would be best to schedule my c-section for 28 weeks since Adam and I had decided not to push our luck past 28 weeks. Every one of the OB's agreed with Adam and my decision to not push it past 28 weeks. For Adam and I we were given such horrible prognosis and not a whole lot had changed in the month that we were dealing with all of this. So we just felt that 28 weeks the chances of survival were pretty good and they didn't really increase that much until 34 weeks so why risk losing her.
Dr. Heitt described it the best when we were talking about it. Adam had mentioned that when we start to see red flags that it would be time to deliver. Dr. Heitt plainly stated that we were swimming in red flags, in fact they were crimson flags. That was the point where Adam and I knew we were making the right decision. 28 weeks was our goal!
On March 2nd our ultrasound was showing absent flow but no reverse flow. The doctor we were dealing with that day was Dr. Conover. We weren't thrilled with this fact since he was so non compassionate to us about Laynie 4 weeks previous. But we went with it. We were just grateful to be getting one more day.
But then on March 3rd. Everything changed....
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Friday, April 3, 2015
Friday, March 20, 2015
25 & 26 weeks with the Girls.
I'm writing this after my girls were born. There is a part of me that wishes I would have done this while I was still pregnant. But with all the doctor appointments and constant worrying I just couldn't do it. I needed to focus on something else.
At 25 weeks (february 12th). Our worlds got flipped upside down yet again. We went in and Laynie had persistent absent flow in her cord, we saw Dr. Zimmer and she decided to give us our first round of steroids. Adam and I were so scared because just 2 days before we had talked with Dr. Harry about how they didn't feel I needed the steroids yet and would only give them to me if they felt that delivery was imminent and soon.
Then the next day we met with one of the neonatolgists that day...Dr. Lariosa. She didn't paint a very favorable picture but then again delivering babies at 25 weeks is less than ideal for everyone. But we signed our consents to treat the girls, and told them that we wanted to save both girls no matter what the neurological outcomes were. It's interesting to me how with just facial expressions how the doctors can express how they don't really agree with your decisions. But Adam and I firmly believe in not saving one child for the other and due to our circumstances it was so hard to make the right decision to save both when at any time Laynie could not survive.
On Tuesday February 17th, we had another ultrasound since their office was closed on the monday before, Dr. Harry peaked his head in and asked to have a growth scan, and we were at 580grams!!! I was so happy! It was such a great feeling to have gotten her over the 500 gram threshold! And our little perfect princess (Lorelai) was 2lbs!!! But the flow in Laynie's cord was showing reverse flow. So they decided they wanted to see us everyday to keep a closer eye on her. We also did a non stress test to get a baseline of their heart rates and Laynie was being stubborn and was hard to trace. Which is always a good sign that she's getting enough oxygen even with her bad cord blood flow. Dr. Heitt did tell us that gestational age plays more of a part than weight when it comes to survivability in the NICU.
We also had our Monogram Maternity meeting later that evening where we got to tour the OR, NICU and get a lot of our paperwork signed. It was a very surreal experience actually setting foot and viewing an OR. Even though I work here and see the NICU and things, it was the OR that really got to me. I had two babies vaginally, luckily with no problems, but the OR hit me like a ton of bricks! It felt so real and I got so scared after seeing that. But I think it was helpful too for me to process everything.
Then on Wednesday (February 18th, Ash Wednesday) Our worlds flipped yet again. She had reverse flow, absent flow and intermittent flow all within a few seconds of each other which isn't good. Also her ductus flow was showing almost absent flow. Which is an indication that the right side of her heart was starting to compensate for the bad blood flow through her cord. They wanted us to come back later in the day to see how things looked and told us that we might want to pack a bag and be prepared to be delivered. Adam and I went home, went to ash wednesday mass, then asked for one of the priests to give us a blessing. When we went back for the ultrasound not much had changed so we decided to be admitted which meant that we were being monitored a lot closer. We would continue to have daily ultrasounds, but also have non stress tests (basically they put monitors on the babies to monitor their heart rates) 3 times a day. With all of her blood flow issues, we were afraid that she would pass away and we were trying to avoid a still birth. At some point her portion of the placenta was going to give out on her and it wasn't going to be able to keep her alive and we just wanted to maximize her time in utero.
Then came Friday (February 20th...26 week 1 day) one of the scariest days yet. Along with her cord blood flow, they have been monitoring her MCAs (medial cerebral artery...in her brain) and her ductus venosus which is where blood flows to her liver. Well this day the flow was very low, almost absent. Dr. Heitt came back to us with a new study that they were doing to try and determine when still births occur and it basically said that in the small study of only single babies, that when the ductus flow became absent that fetal death typically occurred within 3-11 days. She was at a 2.03 on this scale and neonatal death occurred around 2.07. Adam and I prayed and prayed and prayed. I also received my second round of steroids. Luckily saturday things improved a little and then sunday she had the best flow she had ever had in all 3 areas. AND she was practice breathing! We were on such a high on sunday! I'm only sad I don't have a bump picture from this week.
But through it all we made it to 26 weeks...only 2 more weeks until our goal.
At 25 weeks (february 12th). Our worlds got flipped upside down yet again. We went in and Laynie had persistent absent flow in her cord, we saw Dr. Zimmer and she decided to give us our first round of steroids. Adam and I were so scared because just 2 days before we had talked with Dr. Harry about how they didn't feel I needed the steroids yet and would only give them to me if they felt that delivery was imminent and soon.
Then the next day we met with one of the neonatolgists that day...Dr. Lariosa. She didn't paint a very favorable picture but then again delivering babies at 25 weeks is less than ideal for everyone. But we signed our consents to treat the girls, and told them that we wanted to save both girls no matter what the neurological outcomes were. It's interesting to me how with just facial expressions how the doctors can express how they don't really agree with your decisions. But Adam and I firmly believe in not saving one child for the other and due to our circumstances it was so hard to make the right decision to save both when at any time Laynie could not survive.
On Tuesday February 17th, we had another ultrasound since their office was closed on the monday before, Dr. Harry peaked his head in and asked to have a growth scan, and we were at 580grams!!! I was so happy! It was such a great feeling to have gotten her over the 500 gram threshold! And our little perfect princess (Lorelai) was 2lbs!!! But the flow in Laynie's cord was showing reverse flow. So they decided they wanted to see us everyday to keep a closer eye on her. We also did a non stress test to get a baseline of their heart rates and Laynie was being stubborn and was hard to trace. Which is always a good sign that she's getting enough oxygen even with her bad cord blood flow. Dr. Heitt did tell us that gestational age plays more of a part than weight when it comes to survivability in the NICU.
We also had our Monogram Maternity meeting later that evening where we got to tour the OR, NICU and get a lot of our paperwork signed. It was a very surreal experience actually setting foot and viewing an OR. Even though I work here and see the NICU and things, it was the OR that really got to me. I had two babies vaginally, luckily with no problems, but the OR hit me like a ton of bricks! It felt so real and I got so scared after seeing that. But I think it was helpful too for me to process everything.
Then on Wednesday (February 18th, Ash Wednesday) Our worlds flipped yet again. She had reverse flow, absent flow and intermittent flow all within a few seconds of each other which isn't good. Also her ductus flow was showing almost absent flow. Which is an indication that the right side of her heart was starting to compensate for the bad blood flow through her cord. They wanted us to come back later in the day to see how things looked and told us that we might want to pack a bag and be prepared to be delivered. Adam and I went home, went to ash wednesday mass, then asked for one of the priests to give us a blessing. When we went back for the ultrasound not much had changed so we decided to be admitted which meant that we were being monitored a lot closer. We would continue to have daily ultrasounds, but also have non stress tests (basically they put monitors on the babies to monitor their heart rates) 3 times a day. With all of her blood flow issues, we were afraid that she would pass away and we were trying to avoid a still birth. At some point her portion of the placenta was going to give out on her and it wasn't going to be able to keep her alive and we just wanted to maximize her time in utero.
Then came Friday (February 20th...26 week 1 day) one of the scariest days yet. Along with her cord blood flow, they have been monitoring her MCAs (medial cerebral artery...in her brain) and her ductus venosus which is where blood flows to her liver. Well this day the flow was very low, almost absent. Dr. Heitt came back to us with a new study that they were doing to try and determine when still births occur and it basically said that in the small study of only single babies, that when the ductus flow became absent that fetal death typically occurred within 3-11 days. She was at a 2.03 on this scale and neonatal death occurred around 2.07. Adam and I prayed and prayed and prayed. I also received my second round of steroids. Luckily saturday things improved a little and then sunday she had the best flow she had ever had in all 3 areas. AND she was practice breathing! We were on such a high on sunday! I'm only sad I don't have a bump picture from this week.
But through it all we made it to 26 weeks...only 2 more weeks until our goal.
24 Weeks with the Girls
Week of February 5th
How Far Along? 24...we've made it to viability!!!! yay!
Due Date: May 28th
Total weight gain/loss: not a clue
Maternity Clothes? most certainly
Stretch Marks? No new ones
Sleep? It's been a really hard week. We were told at my u/s on Tuesday (I was 23 weeks 5 days) that Laynie's cord blood flow was absent. We had Dr. Conover which i've never been a huge fan of, bc he always seems like he's in a hurry to go somewhere else. But He told us that basically we are going to lose her, and there is a high probability that in doing so will kill her sister, due to the pressure changes in their placenta that come with that. Adam and I are so scared. We are begging for prayers. We also had an ultrasound today and there was no real change in the flow of her cord, and he seemed much more positive today about it...we saw the same doctor...to be honest we are a little confused as to why he was so negative and then today he was so much more positive, but we've decided to take the good with the bad and focus on the good to get us through the weekend. I also had my glucose test and met with my OB. She is just so amazing and always makes me feel more at ease. She also put me on limited duty so I'll just be in the nursery instead of taking a patient load. they don't feel like being on bed rest or anything will do anything to help them. But we were also officially diagnosed as IUGR with the added complication of AEDF (absent end diastolic flow). I'm praying so hard to just get these babies to 28 weeks. We were told today that even though they are "viable" that Laynie is just too small to intubate. She's only 380 grams and they usually need to be at least 500 to have the appropriate equipment to intubate them. And if we delivered now, Lorelai has a 60% chance of survival and will has a high probability of having some sort of brain damage. and Laynie only has a 10% chance of survival. So we need to pray we can get them bigger!
Best Moment of this Week? I can't really say that there has been much good this week. I'm just grateful to still be pregnant.
Movement? yes!
Food cravings? no
Food aversions? nope
Gender? Girls
Labor Signs? still the same.
Belly Button In or Out? Still in
What I miss? not feeling scared all the time.
What I am looking forward to: Just continuing being pregnant. We've moved to twice weekly ultrasounds so we will get to see them more often. But this is all so nerve wracking. Overtime I don't feel them move for awhile I get scared that something has happened. But we have to put our faith in God and pray for them!
Size of the Baby:
Baby's now the size of a papaya!
Baby's skin is becoming more opaque as the fat starts to pack on. And, thanks to the formation of small capillaries, her newly thick skin is taking on a fresh pink glow.
23 weeks with the Twins
Week of January 29th 2015
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| Sunday February 23 23 weeks 1 day |
How Far Along? 23 weeks, one more week to viability
Due Date: May 28th
Total weight gain/loss: 25 or so
Maternity Clothes? you bet
Stretch Marks? No new ones yet
Sleep? Seems to be status quo of not getting too much.
Best Moment of this Week? Just getting another week further with these ladies
Movement? OH yes! i'm starting to be able to distinguish the two. I think Baby B is on top and baby A is on the bottom.
Food cravings? Just sweets
Food aversions? nope
Gender? Girls
Labor Signs? Contractions have slowed down a bit, work is definitely getting more and more uncomfortable.
Belly Button In or Out? Still in thank goodness
What I miss? Again not a whole lot. Just thankful to be pregnant with these girls
What I am looking forward to: I'm only working part time next week due to my ultrasound, glucose test and OB appointment so I'm looking forward to that! OH and reaching Viability.
Size of the Baby:
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Baby's now the size of a papaya!
Baby's little face is fully formed...minus the baby fat, of course. The next task at hand for baby: sprouting two teeny-tiny nipples!
22 Weeks with the twins
Week of January 22nd, 2015
How Far Along? 22 weeks
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| Friday January 23rd 22 weeks 1 day |
How Far Along? 22 weeks
Due Date: May 28th
Total weight gain/loss: somewhere around 20.
Maternity Clothes? best inventions ever
Stretch Marks? No new ones thank goodness
Sleep? It's been as best as can be expected. My arms have started to go numb when I sleep. Not like fall asleep numb, but like numb numb. and just in certain spots. my hands go numb and it takes a while for me to regain feeling.
Best Moment of this Week? At my ultrasound everything looked ok with the babies. Fluid levels, cord blood flow, kidneys, bladders and stomachs are all ok! No twin to twin.
Movement? yes, and its the best part of pregnancy by far
Food cravings? all sweets
Food aversions? nope
Gender? two precious girls
Labor Signs? still having mild contractions at night, but nothing too bad.
Belly Button In or Out? still in.
What I miss? not a whole lot. This whole pregnancy has really changed me and every ache, pain and discomfort is worth it, so long as my girls are ok.
What I am looking forward to: I'm just looking forward to making it to another week. I'm excited to meet these girls but also don't want to rush things.
Size of the Baby:
Baby's now the size of a papaya!
Baby's settling into sleep cycles, snoozing about 12 to 14 hours a day. It shouldn't be hard to figure out when -- just pay attention to those kicks as they start and stop.
21 weeks with the twins
Week of January 15th 2015
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| Wednesday January 21st 21 weeks 6 days |
How Far Along? 21 weeks...3 more weeks until my first goal of 24 weeks!
Total weight gain/loss: 17 I think...maybe 19. Hell I don't know
Maternity Clothes? everything and i love them.
Stretch Marks? No new ones thank goodness
Sleep? this week has been BAD! I worked 2 nights, then we were out of town for a funeral, and I didn't sleep well on the uncomfortable mattress and the 15 month old next to me didn't help, then I came home and was awoken early to the smell of gasoline bc I apparently cracked my gas tank on the travels! ---this mama is TIRED!
Best Moment of this Week? This has been a tough week. We got to spend some time with the boys cousin Quinn which is always one of my favorite things. I love getting to see my niece and getting to see how much Lincoln loves her and they get a long so well! She was hilarious with Landon, sitting on him making him cry and yet trying to give him hugs. LOVED it. The circumstances as to why we got to see them is what was hard. Adam's grandma somewhat unexpectedly passed away so it's been hard for my MIL to cope with her loss and it makes me sad for her and wish we were closer to help her through this.
Movement? YES!!!! I love and cherish every kick! still hard to say if I notice a difference of one vs. two babies.
Food cravings? nope
Food aversions? nope
Gender? Girls
Labor Signs? I have about 2-4 contractions a day. kinda annoying and just uncomfortable. --interesting how I wrote that exact line when I was pregnant with Lincoln at 21 weeks and its still true for this pregnancy.
What I miss? nothing really. My sciatic nerve has REALLY been bugging me, and a couple of times I have almost fallen bc I lose feeling in my legs, but honestly Every ache and every pain is worth it, and only temporary. I would be in excruciating pain daily if it meant that these babies were ok and growing. I just want them to be ok, so the sleepless nights/days, the pain, the contractions and all of it are totally worth it.
What I am looking forward to: Having another ultrasound on tuesday and my OB appointment on Friday.
Size of the Baby:
Baby's now the size of a banana!Baby's digestive system is busy creating meconium (a tarry black substance made of swallowed amniotic fluid, digestive secretion, and dead cells), which will fill the first diaper after birth. And, if baby is a girl, her womb is now stocked up with her lifetime supply of six million eggs (the number will drop to around one million by birth).
**Pictures are on my camera and I haven't transferred them yet.
Monday, January 19, 2015
Growth Discordance
So having twins is emotional. there is just no way around it. Working in the OB field where we see the worst of the worst cases, I don't think makes my emotions any better either. My mind constantly goes to the worst case scenario, or I take care of a patient with a similar history with a less than favorable outcome...sometimes ignorance really is bliss.
But there is so much more that goes into having twins that just one baby. They monitor you for twin to twin transfusion syndrome (TTTS) which is basically just making sure that each baby is getting the proper amount of blood supply. Since they share a placenta one baby can actually take blood away from the other and it's a very dangerous and often deadly situation. I've had two friends lose one or both babies to this!
Then there is Twin Anemia Polycythemia Sequence (TAPS) This is where one baby just because of how the placenta is made up is getting more blood than the other. causing one to have a higher hemoglobin (total blood count) than the other one. This is also a deadly complication.
There is also Intrauterine Growth Restriction (IUGR) or in twins Selective IUGR (sIUGR). Another somewhat less than ideal complication where one baby just grows at a much slower rate than the other for whatever reason. This can be very tricky because you're wanting to make sure that both babies are growing appropriately and if one isn't there could be a reason for it, which could mean early delivery even if that means that the other baby isn't ready.
These are the 3 things that have me most worried. Luckily thus far there is no signs of TTTS. which is amazing. This was the ONE thing I remembered most from my OB clinical and I remember the minute the ultrasound tech told me I was having twins, I was most scared for this. Probably because i've had 2 friends lose one or both of their twins to this, as well as another friend who darn near lost hers.
The other two honestly weren't on my radar until 2 weeks ago when we found out that baby B (Laynie) was at what they called a significant growth discordance. They said they classify it to be a significant discordance at 20% difference and she is at 25%. He said typically their scans can measure 5% in either direction if they were to scan her again. So either way it was a concern. He did say that she had a chance to catch up which is awesome and she's not at the worst case he has seen which can be as much at 60-70% so thats good. He also said that due to my gestational age there isn't much we can do about it at this point other than to wait and see how she continues to develop. But basically what he thinks is that even though they share a placenta they aren't sharing it 50/50. So she may just not be getting an equal supply. He was nice enough, but he also seemed like he was in a huge hurry and I didn't get to ask all the questions I had hoped to. I left the appointment feeling a little bummed and blue but ok.
Then a few days later after thinking about things I had a million questions. So I called the office in full out hysterical crying and a different doctor, one that I've had every other appointment reassured me that they aren't ready to classify her IUGR yet, and that she looks good except she's just smaller. she made me feel so much better. She said we are still hoping to get my to 34 weeks. which is great. Although I would still love 37 weeks!!
Then I went to my OB appointment and I swear I have the best doctor ever, she always has a way of making me feel more at ease about everything. She explained to me in better detail why the do dopplers on the babies cords, which is to make sure the blood is flowing correctly and she explained how depending on findings will also help them determine when they will delivery if they need to deliver early. She also helped put me at ease when it came to the possibility of delivering early. She is just so sweet, and is amazing! I'm so glad she is my doctor!
But either way I'm just hoping for good news tomorrow morning when I go for another ultrasound. I intend to talk to the MFM doctor about the possibility of TAPS and IUGR so long as we are still good with no TTTS.
But I have ever since I found out I was pregnant with these beauties had goals of where I would like to be before we even think about delivering. So here they are.
1. 24 weeks--simply because they will try to save the babies at this age, instead of just comfort measures until they pass.
2. 30 weeks-- babies really do so much better after 30 weeks with eating, and breathing
3. 35 weeks-- they wouldn't necessarily have to go to NICU, they could go to CCN/NCC
4. 36 weeks--they would at least have a fighting chance to be with me in the room instead of going straight to NICU/CCN/NCC
5. 37 weeks--they wouldn't have to have carseat studies and blood sugars for 24 hours!
So we are almost to goal #1 so I'm hopeful we can get to all 5, but we will take it one step at a time. :)
Grow Laynie Grow, keep cooking Lorelai!
But there is so much more that goes into having twins that just one baby. They monitor you for twin to twin transfusion syndrome (TTTS) which is basically just making sure that each baby is getting the proper amount of blood supply. Since they share a placenta one baby can actually take blood away from the other and it's a very dangerous and often deadly situation. I've had two friends lose one or both babies to this!
Then there is Twin Anemia Polycythemia Sequence (TAPS) This is where one baby just because of how the placenta is made up is getting more blood than the other. causing one to have a higher hemoglobin (total blood count) than the other one. This is also a deadly complication.
There is also Intrauterine Growth Restriction (IUGR) or in twins Selective IUGR (sIUGR). Another somewhat less than ideal complication where one baby just grows at a much slower rate than the other for whatever reason. This can be very tricky because you're wanting to make sure that both babies are growing appropriately and if one isn't there could be a reason for it, which could mean early delivery even if that means that the other baby isn't ready.
These are the 3 things that have me most worried. Luckily thus far there is no signs of TTTS. which is amazing. This was the ONE thing I remembered most from my OB clinical and I remember the minute the ultrasound tech told me I was having twins, I was most scared for this. Probably because i've had 2 friends lose one or both of their twins to this, as well as another friend who darn near lost hers.
The other two honestly weren't on my radar until 2 weeks ago when we found out that baby B (Laynie) was at what they called a significant growth discordance. They said they classify it to be a significant discordance at 20% difference and she is at 25%. He said typically their scans can measure 5% in either direction if they were to scan her again. So either way it was a concern. He did say that she had a chance to catch up which is awesome and she's not at the worst case he has seen which can be as much at 60-70% so thats good. He also said that due to my gestational age there isn't much we can do about it at this point other than to wait and see how she continues to develop. But basically what he thinks is that even though they share a placenta they aren't sharing it 50/50. So she may just not be getting an equal supply. He was nice enough, but he also seemed like he was in a huge hurry and I didn't get to ask all the questions I had hoped to. I left the appointment feeling a little bummed and blue but ok.
Then a few days later after thinking about things I had a million questions. So I called the office in full out hysterical crying and a different doctor, one that I've had every other appointment reassured me that they aren't ready to classify her IUGR yet, and that she looks good except she's just smaller. she made me feel so much better. She said we are still hoping to get my to 34 weeks. which is great. Although I would still love 37 weeks!!
Then I went to my OB appointment and I swear I have the best doctor ever, she always has a way of making me feel more at ease about everything. She explained to me in better detail why the do dopplers on the babies cords, which is to make sure the blood is flowing correctly and she explained how depending on findings will also help them determine when they will delivery if they need to deliver early. She also helped put me at ease when it came to the possibility of delivering early. She is just so sweet, and is amazing! I'm so glad she is my doctor!
But either way I'm just hoping for good news tomorrow morning when I go for another ultrasound. I intend to talk to the MFM doctor about the possibility of TAPS and IUGR so long as we are still good with no TTTS.
But I have ever since I found out I was pregnant with these beauties had goals of where I would like to be before we even think about delivering. So here they are.
1. 24 weeks--simply because they will try to save the babies at this age, instead of just comfort measures until they pass.
2. 30 weeks-- babies really do so much better after 30 weeks with eating, and breathing
3. 35 weeks-- they wouldn't necessarily have to go to NICU, they could go to CCN/NCC
4. 36 weeks--they would at least have a fighting chance to be with me in the room instead of going straight to NICU/CCN/NCC
5. 37 weeks--they wouldn't have to have carseat studies and blood sugars for 24 hours!
So we are almost to goal #1 so I'm hopeful we can get to all 5, but we will take it one step at a time. :)
Grow Laynie Grow, keep cooking Lorelai!
20 Weeks with the Twins
Week of January 8th 2015
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| January 14th 2015 20 weeks 6 days |
How Far Along? 20 weeks, for a normal pregnancy we're half way!
Total weight gain/loss: I haven't been good about weighing myself but I think I'm up 15.
Maternity Clothes? The best darn things money can buy/make
Stretch Marks? None that are new.
Sleep? What is that? I sleep for a few hours, then I have to turn which is a whole process so I wake up, and then have to attempt to fall back asleep. My arms and hands have been falling asleep while I sleep which wakes me up, making my life harder.
Best Moment of this Week? I got offered a part time position on my unit!! I'm so thrilled about this. I hope to be able to work until the girls are born at full time hours, but with my sleep going the way it is, it's been harder and harder for me to keep up, and with our new management system at work, you have to apply and do all this crap just to switch FTE's so it's a huge weight off my shoulders knowing that once these babies are born I only have to come back at part time hours. However it will be quite stressful when/if she puts me on limited duty bc I can't pick up extra.
Another good moment this week was my ultrasound to check on our little loves. The only bad part about this was learning that our Laynie girl is at what they call a significant weight discordance. The cut off for the weight discordance is 20% and she is at 25%. I have to say this hit me pretty hard and I was rather depressed for a few days because of it. The doctor told me that there was nothing we could do at this point and that they would just continue to monitor her more closely. But its all so sad and scary. I don't know how other people feel but when something goes wrong with a baby that you're carrying inside you, you can't help but feel a little guilty and feel like you're doing something wrong. Now in my limited medical knowledge head, I know this is not true and that none of this is my fault and that there are things going on here that are out of my control, I still can't help but feel otherwise. But I'm trying to stay positive and I think I may just write a post completely dedicated to this, because this has been very hard on me.
Another good moment this week was my ultrasound to check on our little loves. The only bad part about this was learning that our Laynie girl is at what they call a significant weight discordance. The cut off for the weight discordance is 20% and she is at 25%. I have to say this hit me pretty hard and I was rather depressed for a few days because of it. The doctor told me that there was nothing we could do at this point and that they would just continue to monitor her more closely. But its all so sad and scary. I don't know how other people feel but when something goes wrong with a baby that you're carrying inside you, you can't help but feel a little guilty and feel like you're doing something wrong. Now in my limited medical knowledge head, I know this is not true and that none of this is my fault and that there are things going on here that are out of my control, I still can't help but feel otherwise. But I'm trying to stay positive and I think I may just write a post completely dedicated to this, because this has been very hard on me.
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| Baby A -- Lorelai |
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| Baby B -- Laynie |
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| Lorelai |
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| Laynie |
Movement? YES!!!! I love and cherish every kick! I haven't been able to time Adam being home and them kicking to have him try an feel. not that he will want to anyway.
Food cravings? nope
Food aversions? nope
Gender? We found out via our ultrasound that they are for sure girls. I have a huge reel of pictures from their scan and I got my money shots that I was hoping for. And all looks good with both girls!
Labor Signs? Not sure if I would classify it as labor signs, but definitely feeling the contractions more and more depending on my position.
What I miss? just sleep
What I am looking forward to: Just getting closer and closer to viability and getting to meet these precious babies. I also have and OB visit Friday that I'm very much looking forward to, so I can get her take on all thats going on. She has such a wonderful way of easing my mind and making me feel better! Best Doctor ever!
Size of the Baby:
Baby's now the size of a cantaloupe!
Baby gulps down several ounces of amniotic fluid every day, both for nutrition and to practice swallowing and digesting. And, these days, those taste buds actually work! Studies show that after birth, babies respond best to tastes they've already had via amniotic fluid. Meaning, think about what you'd like your future child to eat as you prepare your own lunch.
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